Sunday, August 27, 2006

signs i read too many celebrity gossip blogs

I had a dream. Remembering dreams is something kinda foreign to me, considering I have a sleep disorder. Lately, I have not been sleeping through the night and I feel that the sleep I get isn't even deep enough for me to dream. But I did dream and I feel its significant.

I wasn't physically in this dream. I guess I was some sort of omniscient presence. I dreamed about Katie Holmes and Tom Cruise.

I was quite the Dawson's Creek fan when I was younger. I loved Joey, Katie's character on the show. She was the underdog--the smart, cute, yet tomboyish friend of Dawson who had a crush on him after being his friend since birth. Although Pacey was a bit of a jerk, I was happy that Katie had picked him in the end because Dawson was kinda getting on my nerves (it was all downhill after he dropped out of USC's School of Cinema-Television. Seriously, what aspiring director would do that?). She was in a couple of movies, only one of which I remember ("Go"). And she was in the new Batman movie which was awesome (good career move).

But then right before the Batman movie came out, it was revealed that she was seeing Tom Cruise (bad career move). Which was fine (sure, there is a huge age difference), except Tom Cruise started to behave oddly. Jumping on couches on Oprah. Refuting the science of psychology. Publicly feuding with Brooke Shields for her medical solution to her post partum depression. At the time, I figured that Katie was just living out some childhood fantasy. She probably had a crush on Tom Cruise when she was younger (for the record, I never did. He doesn't meet my height requirement). It would all blow over in a couple of months.

Then two months later, they got engaged while in Paris promoting their films. A few months later, Katie got preggers. On April 18, 2006, Suri Cruise was born. 131 days later, the public has yet to see the baby. The baby's seclusion is odd, but then again, what has been normal about Tom and Katie's relationship? Over time, she has been photographed looking less and less "herself." In fact, at times she looks trapped.

So, in my dream, Tom was verbally abusive to Katie. He was very controlling. He told her what to do, what to wear, and what to say (with her Scientology handler's approval). Katie didn't spend much time with the baby. However, they spent enough time together for me to see that Suri is actually a boy and slightly deformed.

Apparently I was the voice inside her head because I told Katie, "Leave. Just leave NOW." She responded to me in her head, "I can't. I'm trapped. There's no way I can get out of this unscathed." It was all so sad.

I figured this dream came from somewhere and I needed to pinpoint its source. I found it in a blog I read the night before.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

how did the renunion go?
--Erika